Draw near to God, and
He will draw near to you. Cleanse your
hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4:8
Just the other day, I was in my usual frantic mode of hurry
and scurry; I was getting dressed for work when the phone rang – it was
Maurice.
“Hey! How you doin’?” He asked.
“I’m okay, just getting ready for work... Got a meeting at 10:30. I hope the traffic’s not bad...what’s up with
you?” I asked, eager to get off the phone and out of the house.
I had the phone cradled against my ear and shoulder as I sat
perched on the edge of my bed, gingerly pulling on my stockings.
“Nothing much. Just
driving in to work and I wanted to call you and tell you (pause) that I miss you- and I miss us.” He said.
I stopped easing the stocking up my leg, removed the phone
from the crook of my shoulder and neck and sat up straight.
“Awwww! Really?” I crooned, my voice cracking. I closed my eyes, drew in a deep breath and smiled
as I exhaled. He had me at, “I miss you.”
Like most married couples raising a family, we are stressed
and overwhelmed with the multitude of roles, responsibilities, tasks and
commitments that we assume and that consume us on a daily basis. For all that we do for our family and for
others, we are increasingly finding it difficult to spend time being with one another. During those times, Maurice and I jokingly
refer to one another as “ship” – a reference to ships passing in the night...
When my husband says, I
miss you, my spirit hears a yearning to engage in what matters most - matters
of the heart. I am speaking about the
issues that rest deep in the heart, otherwise known as, the basement issues of
my heart. For me, I miss you means I’ve
neglected spending time with you, and I want to be in your presence. I miss you means I want to share with
you my hurts, my securities, my fears, my fantasies, my hopes and my dreams. I miss
you means I need to feel your full embrace.
And while I know that I miss you
is a call to action, a plea to spend time together, I’m just happy that our
relationship has evolved to that level of love, trust and intimacy; I am happy
for the spirit-to-spirit connection that we’ve cultivated in the midst of this
crazy, chaotic life we are living. I never take what we have for granted; I don’t
rest on that foundation because we’ve worked hard to get to this place in our
marriage. I realize the value of our time together and
the more I submit to it, the quality of our relationship becomes richer.
The landscape for my relationship with God is very similar
to the missing you scenario I’ve described with my husband. That is, there have been moments in my
relationship with God when I have felt we were passing each other like ships in
the night; times when I have missed the opportunity to bask in His presence and
He has missed the pleasure of my company.
I have been caught up in the hustle and
bustle of life and have not submitted to His call. During those times, I find myself doing the
same thing with God that I do with my husband – having a quick, on-the-run check-in.
Skimming
through devotion. Half-hearted praise. Rehearsed prayers... Having a quick on-the-run check-in is like feeding
a cracker to a starving man – it doesn’t satisfy; you crave for something that
will fill you up. A starving man craves
food. A starving heart craves
affection. A starving spirit craves time
with our God.
Like missing my husband, I miss my quality time with
God. My spirit yearns to connect with
Him and share what is deep in my heart.
I yearn to be in His presence and feel His comforting embrace. I’m happy to know Him and to have His love,
but I miss Him- our intimate time together means so much to me...
Early this morning, I came running up the basement stairs with
laundry in my arms and as I flung open the basement door, I was taken aback by
the bright and vibrant burst of sunlight that overwhelmed the room. My first thought was, “Wow! Look at God!” And He said, “Now that I have your attention,
I miss you!”
He had me at, “I miss
you.”
QUESTION OF THE DAY: What are you missing in your relationship
with your significant “other?”
6 comments:
I have to be concious of what I say to you, knowing that any conersation can be the next blog entry! :-)
Well, not EVERY conversation ;)
Dena
Wow - beautifully real, moving & thought provoking as always. Don't worry Maury - just continue to keep it real (smiles). JLewis
Love this. It touched my spirit Dena. You wrote it so beautifully,
Terry
What a special post Dena. I appreciate how you compared your relationship with your husband to your relationship with Christ. You are so right - we can get caught up in everyday living, the hustle and bustle and pushing against the clock, that we forget to take a moment and talk to our Creator. Sometimes we neglect to talk to each other. Thanks for this heartwarming story and reminder.
Thank you, Joyce!
Thank you, Terry!
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